These are my two new found love, Putih and Hitam. Putih is the elder sister while Hitam or Baby (as my mom effectionately calls her) is the younger sister. Got them about ten days after some bastard stold my other cat's kitten named Tiger while she was still nursing. They just snatched the kitten away from the mother. For goodness sake, Tiger was barely a month old. He needed the mom to feed him. I searched for days and cried for nights. Still I didnt find Tiger. 

Fate has it I found this two instead. I rescued them after a heartless stupid idiot abandoned them at the market when they were just little kittens. I think it was because the kittens were female. Why are people so cruel towards animals, so insensitive.

The two of them have been keeping me occupied lately. Getting naughtier by the day. I still think of Tiger everyday and hope he is somewhere safe. You see, when I love something I love them forever. 

This was the final painting that I did for 2d class last year in NIE.
The photos were taken on the submission day, 27 October 2005.

Arena (known to self and others) observant, witty	Blind Spot (known only to others) able, adaptable, calm, cheerful, complex, confident, extroverted, friendly, helpful, logical, modest, proud, relaxed, responsive, searching, self-assertive, spontaneous
Façade (known only to self) loving, reflective, sentimental, silly	Unknown (known to nobody) accepting, bold, brave, caring, clever, dependable, dignified, energetic, giving, happy, idealistic, independent, ingenious, intelligent, introverted, kind, knowledgable, mature, nervous, organised, patient, powerful, quiet, religious, self-conscious, sensible, shy, sympathetic, tense, trustworthy, warm, wise

All Percentages

able (25%) accepting (0%) adaptable (25%) bold (0%) brave (0%) calm (25%) caring (0%) cheerful (25%) clever (0%) complex (25%) confident (50%) dependable (0%) dignified (0%) energetic (0%) extroverted (50%) friendly (25%) giving (0%) happy (0%) helpful (25%) idealistic (0%) independent (0%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (0%) introverted (0%) kind (0%) knowledgable (0%) logical (25%) loving (0%) mature (0%) modest (25%) nervous (0%) observant (25%) organised (0%) patient (0%) powerful (0%) proud (25%) quiet (0%) reflective (0%) relaxed (25%) religious (0%) responsive (25%) searching (25%) self-assertive (25%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (0%) sentimental (0%) shy (0%) silly (0%) spontaneous (25%) sympathetic (0%) tense (0%) trustworthy (0%) warm (0%) wise (0%) witty (50%)

There is something about letterboxes that excites me. Maybe it's because that most of us stay in HDB flats and our letterboxes are those communal, metal thingy that lacks character. These letterboxes were taken at various shophouses around Little India, except for the one belonging to Objectifs. That was taken outside their office when I visited them to excahnge a faulty Lomo cam for Wan. 

OK..here it is. I think this blog thingy is about ready to run. Been fooling around with it for sometime and after many looong nights I am quite ready. Though I think that there's still loads of fine tuning needed. Well I guess we shall see what happens from here on eh?

Being the control freak that I am, I approached this idea of freeing myself from the reins that bind me during art making with apprehension. I wondered if I could create art that I have limited, or no control over what the outcome may be. This intuitive art-making process; where childlike play and exploration are encouraged and inhibitions are abandoned were rather new to me.








After slowly letting go of my inhibitions, my creative impulse shifted from my mind as an artist, to the work itself. The outcome (pictured above) of my art was free of an artist’s goal of meaning making and that of a product oriented work. Losing myself whilst splattering paint onto blank sheets of paper, I never knew what images I may create. No two paintings appeared the same. The only control I had was maybe the medium of choice and the color that I chose. Other than that, the whole process was a sub conscious effort that produced artwork that had a life of its own.

Painting with a control car (pictured below) gave me a sense of false control. I thought that it would allow me to control the movement and the strokes created. However the medium of acrylic paint and cartridge paper did not allow me to maneuver the control car according to my wishes. The intended action that I executed did not always happen my way. The slip sliding of the control car over the acrylic paint on paper created an unpredictable process of art making. The final outcome was a series of painting that was created by using a control car that became an extension of my body that I had limited control of. It is like a limb that would not actually respond to what my brain tells it.