After slowly letting go of my inhibitions, my creative impulse shifted from my mind as an artist, to the work itself. The outcome (pictured above) of my art was free of an artist’s goal of meaning making and that of a product oriented work. Losing myself whilst splattering paint onto blank sheets of paper, I never knew what images I may create. No two paintings appeared the same. The only control I had was maybe the medium of choice and the color that I chose. Other than that, the whole process was a sub conscious effort that produced artwork that had a life of its own.
Painting with a control car (pictured below) gave me a sense of false control. I thought that it would allow me to control the movement and the strokes created. However the medium of acrylic paint and cartridge paper did not allow me to maneuver the control car according to my wishes. The intended action that I executed did not always happen my way. The slip sliding of the control car over the acrylic paint on paper created an unpredictable process of art making. The final outcome was a series of painting that was created by using a control car that became an extension of my body that I had limited control of. It is like a limb that would not actually respond to what my brain tells it.
